I DON'T KNOW...YOU TELL ME

AM I A GOOD GUY??
Suddenly I am asking myself…
“Is this what I want?
Is the joy for real,
Or only an external appearance,which I try to flaunt?”

The mind tells me…
“Be happy for others,
For you are a good guy”,
But the heart being heart
Just Can’t lie

The same old story once again
The same old misery and pain
I have never been destiny’s child
Fate,hasn’t exactly been on my side

It’s been a long ordeal
The wounds have all but healed
But there’s precious li’l I can do…
For neither do I have a magic spell
Nor a wand to wield

May be it’s not meant for me
May be the writing on the wall…
I just can’t see

Now it’s the heart’s turn to preach
Remind me of an agreement I can’t breach
Whatever be my sorrows…
How can I be my friends’ foes??…

I have to share their joys
Covering myself in disguise
For the heart reminds me…
“I am one of the good guys!”