I WON'T GIVE UP....

Just as I thought it was all over
& everything seemed all right
Bolte from the blue came another setback
The mind had given up,but the heart said,”fine,I will fight”

I don’t know when will this end
Success looks nowhwere in sight
But still,I am determined for one last battle
May be I’ll lose but,
“Yes,I will fight”

Standing in the midst of ruins
Indicative of my past glory & might
I know I have nothing to help my cause
Except my will which tells me,
“Come what may,I’ll fight”

Each day I am made to think
Will my ambitions ever see light
“Keep testing me god”,I say
& become even more focused
“Certainly,I will fight”

Even as survival becomes doubtful
I have just one thought
day & night
Beware my detractors,here I come
Hang me if I go down,
“But yes,I will fight”

ABHI'S CORNER

ABHI'S CORNER

Another honour killing in the backwaters of india-for a change,this time it wasn't in haryana or UP,but in Jharkhand.Journalist Nirupama Pathak is murdered...just makes me wonder does the surname,or rather caste of a person is more important than his life in india??
WHAT’S IN A NAME..??
It’s just a means of addressing those whom we don’t know personally…
For addressing near ones,much better terms are in place,
Yet,it’s amazing how much importance we attach to a name…
As if we all are a pack of jokers,with our names being our only ace

Standing for an election…
Keep in mind the most important criteria,
Which is not your proficiency as a public servant…
But the number of people with whom you share your surname in your area

Unknown people suddenly become buddies …
Because they share the common surname,
Befriending people from other communities & ‘so called’ castes…
Is what they consider a social shame

On the other hand,two people with everything in common…
Understanding each other better than anybody else ever may,
Can’t stay together for life…
Just because they pronounce their respective surnames,in a slightly different way!

One guy commits a crime…
& several others pay a heavy price,
Because sharing their surnames with the former…
Is their only vice!

People may achieve a lot of progress…
Garner heaps of wealth,name & fame,
But it’s all of no use,If they don’t stop asking each other…
“may I know your surname?”

ya khuda...aameen!!

Dil se nakaami ka har darr kafoor kar de...
Meri kamzoriyon ko mujhse door kar de...
Bahut gir chuka hoon aye khuda,ab shayad toot jaoon,
Gham toh mere humsafar hain hi,thodi khushiyaan bhi mujhe manzoor kar de...!!

I DON'T KNOW...YOU TELL ME

AM I A GOOD GUY??
Suddenly I am asking myself…
“Is this what I want?
Is the joy for real,
Or only an external appearance,which I try to flaunt?”

The mind tells me…
“Be happy for others,
For you are a good guy”,
But the heart being heart
Just Can’t lie

The same old story once again
The same old misery and pain
I have never been destiny’s child
Fate,hasn’t exactly been on my side

It’s been a long ordeal
The wounds have all but healed
But there’s precious li’l I can do…
For neither do I have a magic spell
Nor a wand to wield

May be it’s not meant for me
May be the writing on the wall…
I just can’t see

Now it’s the heart’s turn to preach
Remind me of an agreement I can’t breach
Whatever be my sorrows…
How can I be my friends’ foes??…

I have to share their joys
Covering myself in disguise
For the heart reminds me…
“I am one of the good guys!”

BE WARY OF THE UNDERDOGS...

LOOK OUT FOR KKR-HERE THEY COME
They might not be the most glamorous...
but they certainly know when to turn on the heat,
They might not be everybody's favourite,
But they keep everybody on the edge of the seat

Having success on a platter...
is not their thing,
For they believe in the adage...
When the going gets tough,the tough gets going!

Taking the adversary head on is a hobby...
Just as the early morning sun kisses a hilltop covered with dense fog,
I've been one myself throughout my life...
Hence take my advice,never discount the UNDERDOG!!

KKR may be the undedog,but believe me,they're the ultimate champs...GO KKR GO!!

TELL ME GOD...

WHY DO I DESIRE…?
They say the world is a fair place…
Justice may be delayed but not denied,
I can’t vouch for this…
For I have always been accompanied by sorrows,joys staring at me from the opposite side

Nobody could ever explain this to me…
Nor could I myself solve this jigsaw,
Why do some people always have their dreams shattered by fate…
While some achieve more than whatever they had ever aspired for

What’s the criteria for being lucky…
I could never ascertain,
Whenever I prayed for a bit of sunshine in my life…
I was gifted with dark clouds,full of rain

Before somebody lights my funeral pyre…
Some questions I would like the almighty to answer,
Why for me this baptism with fire?
Where do I vent my ire…??
Heck,why did I desire?

THE BIGGEST LOVE...

IMMORTALITY
Man craves for money...
man craves for luxury,
man craves for a life..
which is bereft of any worry

man wants delicacies...
man wants to indulge in fantasies,
man wants to enjoy every worldly comfort...
& achieve them with utmost ease

man loves to have attention...
man loves to have influential people in his kitty,
but believe you me,there's no bigger love in this world...
than the love for immortality!!

A ROLLER COASTER RIDE...

LIFE...
As stirring as a hot cup of tea
As painful as the sting of a bee
As soulful as the art of Da Vinci
As serene as the sight of a calm sea
As innocent as the love of a newly wed pair
As stern as a monarch’s glare
As joyful as a toddler’s smile
As shrewd as a wizard’s guile
Full of highs & lows,jolts & strife
Oh Dear!it’s the journey called life

I AM DOOMED...

I AM A FAILURE...

Different times,a different day
no change in my fortunes
no harm in hoping for sweeter music...
but when did i expect devastation to play in my ears as the only tune

I don't know where i come a cropper
where do my efforts go wrong...
my road to happiness is full of rocks,
& is really,really long

Maybe,having lost everything,i shouldn't fear
maybe,i don't belong here
Certainly,i'm a failure...

WHY DID YOU GO...

BROTHER,I MISS YOU…
When even my soul seemed to desert me…
I knew I could count on you,
When cronies suggested I was the best god had ever created…
You grounded me with your unbiased view

You don’t choose your blood relations…
They are provided according to the lines on your forehead,
But if ever god granted me a wish…
Rather than asking for a fortune,I would have chosen you as my brother instead

You never gave me a chance to complain…
But one grievance I shall always hold,
You went away leaving me alone…
Leaving incomplete the greatest tale of friendship,that was probably never told

Everything will slowly come back on track…
Even without you,my life won’t end,
But till I breathe my last breath…
I’ll miss you,dear friend!!

DEATH...!!

DEATH & IT'S UNCERTAINTY

have i ever felt so weak before...
when my entire existence is shaken to the core

i try to stabilize my senses again...
d heart it seems,has conquered the brain

i wish i were a saint or a sage...
so that i could calm down my irrepressible rage

man tries to complete life's jigsaw with his self created dots...
not knowing,that somebody up there actually calls the shots

all the struggles for power,clamour for money...
it all now seems so funny

the world will still be the same...
except,that somebody's erstwhile heartthrob,is now part of a photo frame

impeccably dressed in lifetime,now lying beneath a wreath...
it's the uncertainty,of a very certain DEATH!!

WHAT DO I SAY?

These few lines are dedicated to a very special friend of mine,whom god just snatched away from us...i am not in a condition to say much,except these few words.MAy god place you in heaven buddy,may be we weren't good enough to keep you as comfortably...bye forever brother.

IT'S A DREAM...

IT WOULD BE NICE ...

oneday I will wake up
in a different world
where people won’t fight
over few pieces of gold
where blood won’t spill
over idols & gods
where harmony will prevail
against all odds
when men won’t be butchered
because of their surnames
when we all will co-operate
to achieve our common aims
when love won’t be bounded
by boundaries drawn on some maps
when humanity will finally come out
of these worldly traps
when all my prayers are answered
when all my dreams come true
when success would be by my side...
with whatever i do

one day I will wake up
in a different world…

PLEASE GOD...FINALLY!!

NO MORE PAIN…
I have duly made a new start…
Now it’s fate’s turn to play its part

My efforts would be whole hearted I promise…
You won’t be able to blame me for any blemish

It’s an unchartered path I am going to tread…
Retracing my steps is an event I dread

‘Give me some sunshine,give me some rain’…
Give me anything god,but please spare me from any more pain!!

we shall overcome..??

A NEW START
I have to put an end to this…
To resurrect my life,which has gone totally amiss

Shutting my doors on the thing called ‘feeling’…
Once again in the race of life,I have to start winning

No room for any more failures…
I don’t care if I have opposition from enemies,or support from my peers

As I bid goodbye to my broken heart…
Grant this wish of mine god:make this a brand new,auspicious start

PRAY FOR ME GUYS...

THIS IS MY DARKEST HOUR
When push comes to a shove…
Even the mountains begin to slide,
I have reached such a stage…
No place on the earth is enough for me to hide

It won’t be far fetched to say…
I am standing with my backs to the wall,
How I wish somehow I could do something…
To stall my free fall

None of those around me…
Care to understand my predicament,
When nobody is there to lend an ear…
Where on earth your feelings do you vent??

Pray for me guys…
This is my darkest hour,
Else don’t blame me…
If my tired soul decides to call it quits,& doesn’t go much far

IT'S A WEIRD FEELING...

I DON’T KNOW WHY
I don’t know why…
But I want to cry,
All the dreams that I ever saw
Now appear as though a lie

I don’t know why…
But I want to cry,
My heart is full of tears
But alas!the eyes seem to be dry

I don’t know why…
But I want to cry,
Tell me god,can I ever come out of this…
Or shall I die??

I don’t know why…
But I want to cry,
For I can’t answer others’ questions…
& can only sigh

I don’t know why…
But I want to cry,
The pain is too much to bear,& I wonder…
Is it time to say good bye??

I don’t know why…
But I want to cry,
Should I abandon all my feelings…
Or should I give it one last try?

I don’t know why…
But all I wanna do is cry

I AM READY TO FIGHT AGAIN

MY HEART IS LIGHTER NOW...
It's pertinent to say...
that life is a journey with problems galore,
but just like the proverbial glass half full...
it is also an opportunity for the spirit to come to the fore,

As much as the adversities contrive...
to tinker with our fate,
our inner will warms itself upto the challenges ahead...
with the same youthful enthusiasm of a guy on his first date,

Sometimes in the tug of war,the other side pulls ahead,
on the other occasions,it's our turn,
but rather than winning,it's about putting up a fight...
in any contest,it's the loser who gets much more to learn

there is no fun in a hassle less life...
a life without challenges is not worth living,
the world never had any praise for the gentlemen...
who made it to the top without any striving

The problems in my life haven't reduced...
but facing them valiantly is not a shame,
coz,taking your own fears head on...
is the name of the game!!

I AM READY TO BE CRUCIFIED

PUNISH ME GOD...
Every time i thought it was over
It came back to show me - my joys are temporary , but the sorrows are forever .

They say every cloud has a silver lining
My skies are so dark , even the dungeons appear to be shining !

Fighting against all odds is a habit i've inculcated
Somehow i know i'm one of the most ill fated .

Come on God , give me some more pain
If i am the chosen one , why shall any punishment remain ??

IT'S AN UNFAIR WORLD...

HAVE I FAILED IN LIFE...??
I am their friend…
They all claim,
Yet,for my loneliness…
Whom shall I blame??

There is no dearth of people…
Whom I speak to,
Yet,those deserving to be called as buddies…
Are very few

Everybody wants to have a piece of me…
I am a source of material gains to them,
None could ever gauge the fact…
That my mind is always in a state of mayhem

In their hour of need…
My help is taken for granted,
They never cared to enquire…
What I really wanted

I know they all are turncoats…
Who’d never fail to betray,
Yet,I keep standing up for them..
Day after day,in every possible way

They say good things happen to good people…
Its all a bundle of myth,I am afraid,
Else,through these muddy waters of pain & misery…
Why do I have to wade??

If the sun,the moon,the universe are all fake…
Then I may well have committed a sin,
Yet,every morning I wake up,& ask myself…
“why can’t I ever win??"..

Maybe,like the others around me…
I should have been a rogue,
Being good in this world,it seems…
Is simply out of vogue!!

IS ANYBODY LISTENING...

ISN'T TREATING MALARIA SIMPLE..??

Most of our colleagues are always keen...
to treat it with quinine,

& when it does tend to complicate...
they advocate the use of artesunate,

Such a pity that they conveniently forget the fact...
that MALARIA can be controlled by such a simple act,

Kill the female Anopheles,which is the boss;
As stated by the Legend himself,Sir Ronald Ross!!

I WON'T GIVE UP....

I WILL FIGHT…
Just as I thought it was all over
& everything seemed all right
Bolte from the blue came another setback
The mind had given up,but the heart said,”fine,I will fight”

I don’t know when will this end
Success looks nowhwere in sight
But still,I am determined for one last battle
May be I’ll lose but,
“Yes,I will fight”

Standing in the midst of ruins
Indicative of my past glory & might
I know I have nothing to help my cause
Except my will which tells me,
“Come what may,I’ll fight”

Each day I am made to think
Will my ambitions ever see light
“Keep testing me god”,I say
& become even more focused
“Certainly,I will fight”

Even as survival becomes doubtful
I have just one thought
day & night
Beware my detractors,here I come
Hang me if I go down,
“But yes,I will fight”

WAS IT MY MISTAKE...OR GOD'S??

MEDICINE

One day I asked god,”have I committed a sin…??
Why on earth do I have to study the functions of atropine??
Jones gave his classification,and happily went away…
Mugging which I wasted one full day
Who cares what’s the structure of a bacilli…??
As long as the patient doesn’t die…
Remembering the father of genetics…
Is a problem,I have never been able to fix!!”
God then replied,”Of course,you have committed a sin…
My son,who the hell asked you to study MEDICINE…”

Why Does This Happen All Over Again...

JUST A MOMENT AGO…
Just a moment ago
My mind went to where my heart is
Looking at your photo I thought…
If you are a piece of god’s creation,
He must be a fine artiste
All the memories of yours
Which used to be my lifeline
Came back to haunt me
Of the gone by time
When my days started with your thoughts
& nights ended with your giggles
When you used to worry about
The smallest of my niggles
When to just have a glance at you
I would risk my all
When I could defy even the almighty
At just your one call
Just as I refresh my memories
The heavens open up
May be it’s god’s own style
Of waking me up
From my walk down the memory lane
I experience the same old pain
As I say once again,”good bye,sweety”
& I pretend to forget you my love,my deity